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February 15, 2022

Manvi


Manvi- a name that stayed in my mind, after the two-day trek of 10,000 ft altitude in the Nandadevi ranges of The Great Himalayas. It was an organized trek with a group of 23 people ranging from 11yrs to 46yrs. We all had different goals and challenges in mind.

Manvi had come with her same-aged friends. Being in her early 20s I can imagine she must be full of excitement, looking forward to enjoying the scenic beauty, taking lots of pictures, making reels, and having fun chit-chatting with friends along the way. But God had a different plan for her.

We all started trekking, and as our trek leader guided, without racing with anyone but at our own pace. One of the trek leaders was leading and the other was walking in the last to ensure all group members are taken care of. Very soon, all of Manvi’s friends were among the leading sub-group and she was among the last sub-group. After a while, it was apparent that she would not be able to make the pace to catch up with her friends.

It is not easy to accept when things do not happen according to our plan. It is frustrating to see when our body does not support our mind. One feels helpless, vulnerable, and scared. Even friends and family can't do much about it. After all, it is our journey and we only have to fight.

It happens in life too. We dream of things and plan for new endeavours with great excitement and enthusiasm. And, at times hardly we had begun that we realize life is unpredictable. People we thought we would be walking the life path with are not there. The energy and resources within ourselves and outside that we thought will be in our favour are not anymore. Our routes change- the goals shift- and the struggles altogether become different kind.

It must have been tuff for her, being left behind with totally new company. However, she did not give up. She kept on moving at her pace. I did not hear her complain of any mental or physical pain, possibly she kept it to herself. She made it to the summit and also back to the base camp eventually well within the time as planned by the trek leaders. And, since I was all along among the last sub-group, I had the privilege to be her company and capture her beautiful smile.

Thanks, Manvi for your perseverance, keeping the fighter spirit, and the courageous smile all throughout the trek. You justified your name which means a person who possesses all best qualities. Thanks for being there and giving us all an unexceptional inspiring experience. Love you! 


 

October 3, 2021

Why Doesn't It Hurt?

 

You lied to me,

You spied on me!

You betrayed my trust; But,

Why can’t I stop feeling for you?

Why doesn’t it hurt?

 

Why don’t I raise a question?

Why don’t I build aggression?

Why don’t I wait for an apology?

Why my love is not worldly?

 

Shouldn’t I expect you to be loyal?

How do I allow you to be immoral?

Why don’t I care for fairness?

How do I ignore the human-ness?

 

Why am I not insecure?

What makes me feel so sure?

Am I blind in Love? or…

It just doesn’t matter!

How can I behave,

not based on your behavior?

 

What makes me believe,

Love is to give, not to seek?

And, when I unconditionally give,

I feel powered; not at all weak!

 

I am no one to judge you,

I am no one to correct you!

Whatever good or bad you do,

Will stay with only you!

 

The truth is not the same for all,

But, in your own eyes to see you fall,

Which you can’t revert,

Will bring extreme discomfort,

And, that will certainly hurt!

 

September 26, 2021

Happy 39th dear Brother!


As if was yesterday when,

I held you like just mine,

Can't believe time flew by,

And, you turn thirty-nine!

 

You made all of us proud, 

In whatever came in line,

No matter what you achieved,

You stayed modest and benign!

 

You are a blessing to have,

And our bond is to enshrine!

I wish you, health, courage and,

Wisdom; that is divine!

 

May God shower you with

Everything and anything you wish,

And, may you carry the confidence

To always grow and shine! 

 


April 5, 2021

अकेला कैसे कर आया ?

जिस माँझी ने कश्ती मेरी कभी ना छोड़ी,

बीच भँवर उन्हें कैसे छोड़ आया? 

था खुद से वादा, रत्ती तकलीफ़ ना होने दूँगा, 

फिर दर्द में अकेला कैसे कर आया ? 


सीखा उन्हीं से अंत तक दृढता से लड़ना,

हार से पहले फिर कैसे हार मान आया?

उम्मीद भरी निगाहें, तरसी होंगी इंतज़ार में,

आख़िरी साँस, मेरी एक झलक की आस में।


निर्दयी नियति ने कैसा जाल बिछाया,

बांध बेड़ियाँ हालात से मजबूर बनाया

है बोझ दिल पे, कैसे करूँ खुद को माफ़ 

काँपती है रूह , धड़कने रुक जाएँ काश!


जाना है सभी को, अमर नहीं कोई,

पर यूँ ना हो किसी की अधूरी विदाई! 

एक बार जो वो वक्त लौटा दे मेरे देवता,

तस्सल्ली करूँ कि आख़िरी मुस्कुराहट दे पाया !