“What did you ask for from the God?”
Someone asked outside the temple. It made me think of all those things that I
used to ask for. I had asked to come first in the class when I was in IX
standard. Long hair, selection in entrance exam, a 'yes' and many such things that I would
ask for and promise to come back to the same temple and offer 'prasad'.
Then, there was a time, when I
stopped asking such things but for one: that May God not let me do anything
wrong and that I do all right to everyone. I was afraid to be wrong and do incorrect.
However, some of my life experiences later changed my perspective. It was Okay to ‘not know’, it was Okay to ‘do wrong’, it was Okay for others to not know
and do wrongs.
So then to ask from God, I had ‘Peace of mind’, ‘Happiness’ and ‘Courage to face the adversities’. With time, even the need to ask these things got dissolved. I realized that there are phases of happiness and sadness, fortunes and misfortunes in our life. I stopped asking anything for me. Asking for any other person would still mean some thing for me as I would be related and concerned for him or her. Okay, so then I decided I would not ask for anything for me or anyone related to me, for it did not make any sense to me.
I did not become atheist. I go to temples and bow my head to the supreme authority. I do thank God, for all the goodness in my life. But I withdraw from asking anything, from being demanding. What to ask? What more to ask? Why to ask? Let me be appreciative of what is given. Life is not fair but still good!!
