ज़रूरी है-

 

ज़रूरी है-

बाहर आ खुद से,अपने आप को देखना। 

देखते हुए दुनिया को, भीतर मन को टटोलना। 

मुस्कुराहट सच्ची है या है दर्द छुपाए?

सब भूल बैठे या, ज़िंदगी से हैं लम्हे चुराए?

टूटी ख़्वाईशों ने क्या दम तोड़ दिया?

या फिर उन ख़्वाबों ने नया मोड़ लिया?

मिला है क्या उद्देश्य जीने का? 

जाना सही किनारा इस सफ़ीने का? 

पाई है क्या सार्थक राह जीने की ?

या खोज ज़ारी है वजूद के मायने की?

ज़रूरी है-

बाहर आ खुद से, अपने आप को देखना। 

खुद को तलाशना, स्वयं को विलोकना!

कर दू तुझे रिहा?

मर्ज़ हूँ मैं या तेरी दवा 

कैद में मेरी, ए मेरे खुदा, 

दर्द में तेरे साथ रहूं 

या कर दू तुझे दिल से रिहा ?

रूह में मेरी बसा है तू 

जैसे इत्र में घुली फ़िज़ा !

जुदा होना देगा क्या सुकून,

या बन जाएगी एक सजा ?

जो भूल गई तुझे किसी दिन 

खुद से हो जाउंगी खफा !

तेरी ख़ुशी ही फिर भी होगी 

मेरी दुआओं में हर दफ़ा !

दर्द में तेरे साथ रहूं 

या कर दू तुझे दिल से रिहा 

हर फ़िक्र को धुएँ में उड़ाता चला गया

I remember five years back when I got too obsessed with listening to the sad news. I was just concentrating on the news like - he died; he had a cardiac arrest; she had the malignancy; someone met with an accident and so on so forth. It made me totally engaged in this and my mind was ill-focused. In the process I was always thinking- am I having this disease? I should go to the doctor and I made the life of my doctor friends hell. The witness is Dr. P P Khandelwal.  

Even when my son was getting married I was not in the right mood. I was always thinking as if life is coming to the end. I was running from pillar to post for my check-up. This is called obsessive-compulsive disorder. I passed pitiable 3 years and forgot what is happiness. I started getting weak. 

But one fine day I just threw this obsession out of the window. जो होगा अच्छा होगा! I concentrated on music and sports. My friends helped me a lot including my brother like Dr. P P Khandelwal Sahib and other friends who are musical and sportsperson. I kept myself occupied and

 हर फ़िक्र को धुएँ में उड़ाता चला गया  

मैं जिंदगी का साथ निभाता चला गया 

There are many persons who keep on repenting - अरे मेरी शादी वहां हो रही थी, अरे में वो जमीन खरीद रहा था, अरे में IAS Main पास हो गया पर interview में रह गया, अरे में ये शेयर्स ले लेता तो ये हो जाता  and so on so forth.

These persons all the time get captivated by these stories. They cherish talking about such fiascos things in their life.  Neither they remain happy nor allow others to remain happy. 

Just forget the past and enjoy every moment of the present and don’t live in the future either. Just think - whatever would happen it would be GOOD. God is great! We are his kids, he has to decide how and how much we are to live. Just hold his hands and just enjoy the life ahead. 

Author: Mr. Anil Khandelwal

He is a Chartered Accountant, has been in the practice of Project Financing for the past 25 years and corporate service for 11 years, residing in Jaipur. Mr. Khandelwal is the Admin of a variety of groups which include Finance, Economy, Music, Quotations, Political discourses comprising of top minds, administrators, bankers, Doctors, real estate developers & Professionals across the conceivable sectors, managing them all well.  

That I'll never forget her!

 

I've been blessed to spend many summers with my great-grandmother while I would not meet a lot of people since I'd come to India only for a few days in a year.  She was definitely the one who's made a big difference in my life, despite a huge generation gap and infrequent calls. She was the lady they talk about in movies. Much more than that. She was always such a delight to spend time with. As kids we'd spend time in her room which was right next to the entrance, listening to beautiful stories she would share with us. When my brother and I would run around the house, she'd tell us how much she loved the bond between us and told us about her relationship with her brother. The best part would be how we'd run to fill Dadisa's प्याली from which she drank water. There were times when I'd not understand what she said in Marwari, but there were also times where she was reading me English words written in Hindi which we did not even realize for a while😂

There's so much I've learned from her, for she was so loving, yet bold and strict. She'd always narrate her experiences, but none of them were ever even slightly close to boring. I'd love listening to her. 

Every time my back would hurt or my ankle pain as my excuse to not do something, she was the one who walked around despite suffering from paralysis. 

She told us about the most important decisions she'd taken and advised us how to deal with various types of people we will definitely come across in our lives. Her energy was such that it filled me only confidence and confidence but nothing else. She filled me with the strength to make mistakes and get up. 

She was the most religious person I have known in my entire family. She was definitely the person who convinced us to believe in the faith honestly, with practical reasons.  It is inspiring and heart touching that she donated her body and her money and most importantly her knowledge. That she was the most thoughtful person I've known in these 20 years. That I'll never forget what she taught me. That I'll never forget her.

Pankhuri Bhandari